i miss you guys. tons.

Today was SUPER FUN(: (:

Woke up SUPER LATE. 6.20!!!
Ack and i promised myself i'd be early tday.. buttt. I got ready like 1000x faster than usual.
in 10 min i was ready to go! haha so proud of myself. should wake up late next time:P

school was boringg. Mr tan sent me a sms early in the morning telling me he had gastric flu and couldn't come..I felt sadd for him. hahah couldn't believe it. but i think he very poor thing eh.. everyone was cheering then he was sickk. maybe cos i'm sick too so its sympathy ;P

Had lunch with Lanxin(: haha had a sandwhich. AGAIN!
then it started to pourrrr. And heard someone say: KATHLEEN! YOU GOING HOME AH??
and saw jolene scurrying to catch the 2 lovebirds nat and mandy:P
I thought they are mad. and my thoughts are normally correct(:(:
so me and lx went up 4 gruelling flights of stairs to retrieve my broken brolly (which i offered but was refused):) and banyueji..
then slowly made our way back down.

it had stopped raining, so we went to the bus stop. guess who i saw?
NAT, THE SMELLY BUM.
man they must have been walkin at th speed of my great grandma.
even my great grandma don't walk that slow.
and so i hopped onto the same bus as you and you had a look of total shock written on your face.
thought i was going north pole with you or smth.
and we talked and talked...and you almost made me miss my stopppp!!!
made me have to ring the bell 3 times D:

haha so i got off and took 13.
at pp mrt bus stop i got a call.. "hello kathleen ah, are you on 13?"
btw i don't have caller id so i didn't say her name back..was still guessing. and let her do the talking:P
"um yeah." "are you upstairs?" "huh?" "is it got alot of SA ppl there?" "ah??"
then there was some person in the back going "aiya i talk to her la"
"hello kathleen? is there alot of SA ppl where you are?"
whoa. great improvement!

so anyways i went downstairs (it was a double decker mind you, i did not go underground)
and saw jolene and jerine:D
hahaha they asked me to go to j8 with them..for fun.
they were brainwashing me to go.
jolene said "you know what, i'll even say i'm desperate for you.."
whoa.
but in the end i agreed.

Went to eat at KFC! but i redeemed my points frm macs and went over:P
saw Florence walk by. she looked lost.
Had a good talk with them over lunch..
about nothing! we just crapped around and stuff.
how i miss those times when i did that everyday...

Looks don't count..
i'm still a child inside.
Why is that so hard?
I miss you all so so so much.
You all are the only ones that i'm so free with.
To be who i am.
There's no pressure. No stress. To do anything right.
With you all, I can say, I am HAPPY.

We then walked around..got socks:P
and walked sommore.
we walked till our legs hurt i tell you. and our abs too.
took escalator all the way to the 4th lvl, circled it twice going to every store.
then 1 and a half times arnd the 3rd lvl,
then once on the 2nd and 1st floor,
and when we came to the basment lvl we jus got a seat and sat at the bench.
whoa.

we saw so many nice nice things!!
Was thinking of getting smth for mothers day, but they were ex):
hmm but mostly we crapped alot:P
haha the most often phrase is "oi! the whole j8 can hear you ah!"
damn funny.
we realised as we were sitting down, we would bend down and go up again whenever we laugh.
so one moment you see 3 heads, the next you don't then you see them again(:
one lady was reading a newspaper beside us.
then jolene was like "hey that's cedar!" and pointed to her paper.
yup yup the cross country team! haha then 3 of us were staring at her paper..

then the lady stood up and walked across to sit opposite instead:P
HAHAHA we were crazy la. hazard to the public.
so we decided to give mercy to the world and go home(:
ahh. even though i was never really close to jerine, I still feel more open around her than anybody in my class right now.

Must have a 2C gathering soon.. I realised what i've been missing out the whole year!! (:

it's late..better go sleep now. later lx starts nagging:P
nites(:

P.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRABHMEET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU LOTSSS xxx
Happy bdae to parveen too(: defenders whoosh!

diarrhoea......

hey guys! oh man suffered from diarrhoea today when i came home from school. horrible burning cramping feeling in my abdomen!! anyway turns out my mom too had diarrhoea so we suspect it was something we ate last night. haix... whats with all the germs spreading nowadays?

anyway i felt so zombie-fied again today in school. was so tired. and guess what? i spent like most of geog lesson with my mouth hangin open. not cos i was drooling or whatever ok!! but cos i didnt understand most of what mrs koh was talking (at the speed of an athlete doing a 100m sprint) about. ok i mean i KIND of got most of it, but the first time round was pretty messy. so let's just say i'm not the best person to look at during geog class yeah?

anyway, what else can i say? pretty satisfied with how today panned out. after all, tomorrow's labour day!! wow technically rest day in my opinion since we have public hol what. but anyway i didnt bring back my e maths tb 3b!!! that means i can't do my homework 9.1, 9.2, 9.3. how fantastic! guess i shall have to call someone up then!

(btw, nat is so right. my class is so full of gayness! in both senses of the word. can't stand it....it's contagious i bet....)

anyway i gtg now so bb! (before my brother appears and attempts to read what im saying...)

love ya all
mandy (:

Sickkkkkkk

Ahhhhhh I am so down with flu can.

I practically was begging for tissue paper tday.

Thanks JOAN for saving my NOSE(:(:

I almost crashed my head on the table a few times tday.
It's lonely being without a table partner):

GET WELL SOON GABRIELLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes i feel so shi bai cannot do anth for her..

Ah sidetrack. I smacked my head many times tday.
I learnt that from Parveen and Anooja when i was like this before a match..had 4 hands on my head shaking it vigourously. Or is that why i'm now havin post-headpains??
Anw, lessons were boring. Got scolded by ms thang tday. havn't seen her in a while! :)

There's pe tmr..ahhh i wna go. But if i still like this..
this mornin i ran to hannah's hse. late again!!! D: D:
I feel soooo bad. darn it. shall turn up 10 min early tmr. :D

ah yesterday. after sch.
shan't say wat happened, but i'm disappointed.
very.

I'm not angry..jus disappointed and sad. Because it's not for my good, its for everyone.
and you were being selfish. and the worst thing is that you know it!!
Wat more can i do?
But live and forget. I hope I'll not see this again.
it's hard luck but I can hope can't i?

Ah darn i didn't get to go for trg today..it is saddening.
I'll have to postpone napfa too if i can.

Have gotten back all my papers alr! yikes It wasn't expected AT ALL.
Everything i thought i'd get turned upside down.
I thought i'd do better in E math than A, but my A scored 10 marks higher..
I studied for bio and didn't touch physics and chem at all, but bio turned out to be a heart breaker..i scored highest for physics among my papers, and got a suprise A1 for chem.
And for language wise...as expected, i didn't do very well.
oh, suprise geog as well! hahaha(:

so in total, 4 A1s and the rest are Cs??
OHNO. gotta start bucking up.
God gave me time..I was too stubborn not to use it.
neahhhhhhh.

ok got to do maths now. seeya(:

one more day!

going for trg tmr(: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (:

haha i'm sick but I'll still go no matterrr wattt :D
I MISS NEHBALL SO SO SO SO MUCH.
I MISS NEHBALLERS TOO, specially the one who ran away D:

School's quite boring nowadays..no gabriella beside me anymore. D:
WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO LEAVE ME TO COME BACK TO LEAVE ME AGAIN??
and the worst thing is that last night she was admitted to hospital.
I wanted to call her.
but that SILLY BUMMMMM had to run away with my phone all the way to her class.
It's not funny. silly goose. D:
Now i'm phoneless.
But this proves i'm not a phone addict(:(: I'm surviving!

ahhhhhhh gtg now...looking forward to trg:P

wake up call

hello! kind of forced to blog by our dear kat. so here goes...

today was not too eventful or memorable to be honest but this is what happened in school today.

well, erm...ms chng didnt come today so we had free last period but seriously no one was in the mood to study after getting our bio test results a period earlier. in the words of MX (my classmate: "that's why we're only double science class.." we did pretty badly. i mean, what do you expect when our highest marks were only a B4? and anyway i thought i should have done so much better. serious wake up call from mrs chaiw man. gotta work harder from now on!!

erm...anyway while i was emo-ing away today, hanis and i were talking a lil about janell and i suddenly realised i miss janell so much.

i miss janell!!! i miss her in training!!! the way she does stuff during training....just so different without her!! i miss her when i go my chinese class or when i walk past her class last time and remember what she will do!! gosh i am SO nostalgic. i dont care if you think im mad i've been feeling this for a long time. training just isnt the same without janell. she provided that sense of seriousness among us slacker/joker cedar blazers! hmm...i wish i appreciated janell more when she was here. janell....if you see this....then im glad you finally know how important you are to us. yeah so...dont freak out im just feeling so emo now....SPINELLI!!!

much love,
.....a very emo mandy

good times.

:D:Dahhhhh the good times...

we gotta get tgt some time.. brings back good memories.

sexy spinelli(: i miss you!!! Just left us here... D:

teamwork(: 2 artists reminscing our art tgt...

The oh-so-forgotten team..the reason we were there.

i like grp photos... (:

Do we look alike??

Sunburn time!!

quiet times... (guess where we put the camera!! :O)

whee! see the escalating height.. haha i'm the shortest here D:

One of our fav pictures.. ande & sangu look so couply! haha i rmb the time they were

holdin hands in the mall.. *winks at janell;)

true meaning of "bringing cedar netball to greater heights..."

get what i mean? (:

I think we all look super cute(: and, i jus realised, have matching smiles!

Half the cedar blaze family(:

CHEESE! we are lying on the ceiling:P

silence is beautiful..

MIME! hahaha(:

hahaha all the toothy grins.. :D

our sunset view..

Ah janell..I can't wait to have such a time with you again!

evening game of frisbee..ah see our slim figures? It is all hard work(: whee!

The harbour at night.....

I miss you all. I really do.

Because of you, I love a little more. Because

of you, I take time to give an extra kiss good-bye.

Because of you, I have a new favourite song...

Because of you, I live today, before i worry about

tomorrow... Because of you, now I can help or

listen more. Because of you, today, I am me.

~EILEEN WERNSMAN APRIL 27

SMILE ZOMBIES(:

hey my fellow zombie!!

Yup i'm now a sick-panda bear-zombie-with-bad-hair. I'm also like a bald eagle D:
On this sunny sunny bright blue day I am at home..doing maths. sick.

ack napfa is next week. I am depending on 2 trgs to get back my fitness.

thats 5 weeks of downhill fitness and 2 days of regaining. JIAYOU(:
Yay tashi and fellow zombie, we can be tgt in trg madness again!!
but we must carry out our plan and act like super cool ppl and hypnotize the sec 1s first:P

hahaha though i won't be on full blast with this horrible hair):

Ps: mandy, i hope you got our "secret th********ts"!!
Pps: Hope you both like the new skin..don't like tell me okay? i change(: oh and nat, whats the add for ur slideshow? i try to add it(:

bb!

You Raise Me Up

You Raise Me Up

-The Original by Josh Groban although Westlife version rocks too!!

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up,
so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up,
to walk on stormy seas
I am strong,
when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up
To more than I can be.


There is no life-
no life without its hunger
Each restless heart
beats so imperfectly
But when you come
and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up,
so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up,
to walk on stormy seas
I am strong,
when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up
To more than I can be

You raise me up.... To more than I can be....

zombie attack!!

haha wow you guys sure are a happy-go-lucky bunch.

i guess i have to start reminding myself to chill out more, and stop stressing over minute stuff.

guess what? i feel so zombie-fied today. i just lost my voice (whatever's left of my voice sounds nowhere near as sexy as weili's when she lost her voice last year :p) and i am or was running a slight fever throughout the whole of today. i feel so tired...i can't concentrate on doing anything well. i feel like a zombie.. gotta go catch some sleep soon....zzzzzz....wait zombies strike at night don't they? well watch out guys! i am coming for you.....zzzzz....hmmm.....

anyway, thanks for the encouragement pals. i gotta keep going on from strength to strength. you know...i think God gives us trials in life to help us improve and become a better person. besides, i think it's somewhere in the bible that states that he will always provide sufficient strength for us to overcome whatever trials we have to go through.

haha kat, that's so sweet. i've forgotten what it's like to look at babies and try and figure out why they do what they do and the beauty of the simplicity in their lives. i guess i gotta go find my cousins and start playing with my nieces/nephews soon!

anyway i'll post more again when i'm feeling better alright?

love ya all
mandy (:

Blog skin

Hey guys i changed the blog skin!! Hope its fine..still tryin to work it out... (:

Friday

Ethan went for a blood test today.

I was carrying him..he was crying.
I put him down..and took out my phone.
He stopped..and listened.
As he reached out his hand,
I saw a plaster too big for him..wrapped around one of his small tiny finger.
He tried to say smth..all I heard was the rumbling of the phlegm in his throat,and a cough.
He almost choked on himself..and his face turned red. with a look of pain.
I could feel the burn in my heart right then..and wished it was me and not him.

He then looked up at me...and SMILED.
My eyes felt wet..and my heart felt warm(:

Its jus that simple for a small child to fight the sufferings and be happy. why not others? stay strong!(:

God wants us to lay our burdens on Him

and rest in His love. It's His responsibility to

work out the purpose and plan in our hardships.

JONI EARECKSON TADA

BE HAPPY.

Yo.

Kat, you have a really funny friend man. Congrats to you:)

Man! Like Kat said, yes, we all have our ups and downs and this is just one of those lower moments in ur life. God will always be here for ya. So yeah, continue sharing everything with him k? We love ya very very much and don't worry, if you really wanna cry, let it all out. It helps a lot you know.. Hmm.. one method that i try to use is to just totally forget about the negative aspects of the problem and just focus on learning from my mistakes and BE HAPPY. Well. It sorta works. Most of the time. But some time when i try to block out all the sad and try to be happy happy happy, i realise that i really ain't happy. And that's when the emotions take over.. well. That's how i feel anyway. We all have to let out all those feelings inside sometime right?

“God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in any other way. The way we learn those lessons is not to deny the feelings but to find the meanings underlying them.”

haha

Today a few hilarious things happened. one is that i'm here posting when i'm supposed to do chinese. yup. its wayy past my bedtime:(

hm. I joined in for PE tday!! yay. cept i fell down twice. D: D: so embarrassing. we were at the side foyer and melinda fell. then i fell. we concluded it was very dangerous there so we moved to the buzz at canteen area. then i fell again!! ahhhhh. I have a huge blue-black on my shin now. make that two.

Hahaha the next is funnier:P I was just talking to my ex teammate frm tvps. We were quite close then..haha now she's in AMK sec netball. was just talking to her and this was our convo.

me: cedar nball got top 4 nationals(:
hueyfen: cedar
me: yup
hueyfen: eh i forgot which skol you in
me: tsktsk..
heuyfen: tsk is wat skol?

HAHAHA. the sad part is that she wasn't pretending...

...

me: hey you really thought tsk was a sch?
hueyfen: ya la or else why i ask? so wat is tsk??

heyyyyyy

Since God assured us, "I'll never let you down,

never walk off and leave you," we can boldly

quote, "God is there, ready to help."

Hebrews 13:5-6 THE MESSAGE APRIL 24

Yeah there are times when we want to jus break down and cry. Feel like we've just failed ourselves. or others.

But what is really important?

I think that is and isn't really up to us to decide. Like what Weili always says, it's all in your mind. It's true! I think you all are the bestest no matter what. Don't let small things pull you down! There's almost always a next time(:

The Lord is always there. Don't give up! This is all part of His plans for us. He loves you and wants the best for you.. and i love you too(:

~Only after the storm, then does the rainbow come~

Hi there!

Saw the Cedar Blaze blog already! Looks great! Hope that this will help us bond better (:

Haix....did so badly for pure Geog test. Well, in retrospect, Mrs Koh said that half the class failed so seeing as to how I passed rather safely, I SHOULD be happy right? Wrong! I'm so angry with myself. I mean I felt like crying in class today during Geog period. I was about 80% there already, except I realised that I didn't want to make a fool of myself. I mean, Mrs Koh was like staring at me with that kind of," What happened to you? I'm so disappointed in your results. I expected much better."look.

I can't believe I could have done so badly for the test. When Mrs Koh went through the answers, I realised I actually knew all the answers, I could have aced the whole test like the last one, it was that easy. But I totally interpreted the questions wrongly. How could I? Mrs Koh was like," I want to give you all time to reflect and think about what went wrong during this test." Man!! It took all of my willpower to not burst out crying. Mrs Koh called out some people(presumably those who failed quite badly I think) for a one-to-one talk. I wished she called me. Then I could tell her, "Yes I DID study, I KNOW the answers but I somehow didn't manage to write them out. Please kill me now." Gvv thought I was joking but I really meant it at that time and I DO mean it now too.

Anyway, I am quite relieved that my Chinese group managed to escape presenting our project today but that means that I have to present it tomorrow as the first group. Hmm...wish me luck!

Hi!

Saw the cedar blaze blog! It's NICE.. but nobody has posted anything yet!!

Oh man Kat. You have got to make a move on the homework (especially chinese)! Good luck to you. Man. Are you alright? You seem a little far away.. like on another planet or something. Keep us informed about any of ur problems or anything ok? We are so totally here for ya. So don't fret yea?

LOVE YOU GUYS:)

zZz..

whoo i'm still on the com..

sometimes i like my hair, sometimes i don't.
i like it when it dries after i've just showered
(cept jus now when i sat in front of the fan n now i have a side which looks like its been exposed to an explosion),
and when i wake up in the mornin.

But after that its really crappy.
I want to cut my hair. ):

i'm tired. but i have to bring chi tmr..
and i hav spent 5hrs on the com.
the best part is, i havn't done a thing! :O

WHEEWHEEWHEE(:

HAHA YAY FOR 3SOME-UNDERSOME(:

hmm wow i guess we all have been havin troubles..haha mine was small but i just kicked up a big fuss:P nothin really so stop worryin! Hey Mandy, i know you don't like to tell out loud these kinda stuff, but if that makes you feel good then we'll let it be that way(: but i seem to be noticing you in "outer space" like i told you on the bus that day.

NATASHA! you ah. i don't know what to say. Why must you be so secretive?? Hahaha if it's anu you are worryin abt, i promise i won't say anth. I won't tell a soul!!! WHY DON'T YOU WANT TO SHARE YOUR A-MATHS RESULTS?? HAHA FINE.

To gain that which is worth having,
it may be necessary to lose everything else.
BERNDETTE DELVIN

HAVE TOS:

I have to start exercising.

I have to do NAPFA.

I want to play captain's ball with my class tmr.

I have to learn my juniors' names.

I have to learn to manage my time. unlike wat i'm doin now.

I need sleep.

I need my 2 frens which one seems to hav gone bonkers and the other senile.

I have to make my table partner talk more so that she will tell me where's she's going before she runs away for 3 periods and make me train for my 2.4km prematurely and miss ms chngs chem demo (which i still finished before the others so pat on the back for me!)

I have to concentrate on my chinese project and not get distracted.

I have to learn how not to get distracted.

MUST CAN WILL

P.s. cedarblaze blog is now open!! whee! www.cedarblaze.blogspot.com. i think:P

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

Sigh..

Aren't we a jolly lot.

Hmm.. well yes, being in the class com is a very stressful thing. Cooperation is the most important quality a class should possess. To make life easier. And help us sprout less white hairs.. My class ain't wat i would call the Most Wonderful Cooperative Class but hey, at least they listen. Or try to.. i dunno actually. I feel kinda messed up. Hiax. Life is so confusing.

Well about the sec three netball team issue, i feel that we are really one lot of low esteem-ed ppl. We really need to work on our confidence. And LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE.. Yeah. And BELIEVE that we can do it. By that i mean at least trying to get into the school team next year and earning the respect i know we really deserve from our darling juniors.

So, my fabulous buddies.
Cheer up ok! Remember, as kat says, God is always here for us. Through thick and thin, sorrow and happiness:) He LOVES us. Yeah so just always rmb to tell him all that hurts.. he'll make it hurt less, he'll help lighten that heavy load that's burdening you. Trust me, he knows exactly how you are feeling and he knows all your problems before you've even said them to him. You'll feel a LOAD better knowing that someone is listening to you and everything you have to say:)

Kat, hope you aren't gettting too stressed over the class com issue. Don't worry, God will help you pull through. It'll all be over before you know it:)

Man, whatever problems you have (i didn't know they even existed - thought that you were happy and carefree) feel absolutely free to tell them to me and kat k? We're more than willing to lend an ear:) Oh and WOW. I didn't know you love maths. Huh, another new fascinating fact that i have come to learn about you..

So keep on smiling people, and hold your heads high cause ain't no one or anything going to block our path to happiness!

CHEERS.

(:

You know what. I think each day, God is answering all my problems. By telling it to my face.

Snuggle in God's arms. When you are hurting,

when you feel lonely...let Him cradle you,

comfort you, reassure you of His

all-sufficient power and love.

~KAY ARTHUR APRIL 20

haha thanks mandy(: ah yes maths is such a blessing ain't it! bleahhh. hahaha(: I don't seem to have the mood to do it though...

What's with all the emo-ness?

Hey guys!! Was just wondering what's up with you all!

Esp Kat, hey don't get too stressed out over your class comm thingy...my class is also not cooperative at all (I'm one of the main culprits who don't actually DO anything but at least i don't talk when any of my class comm members are speaking to the class) It's not that we DON't WANT TO DO ANYTHING, it's just that we DON'T KNOW HOW TO GO ABOUT DOING THE STUFF. Haha actually I think monitresses have a really tough job. So keep perservering on yeah?

Actually I've been feeling kind of down and out recently, I've got lots of things on my mind. All of different scopes. I don't feel like listing them out because it'll only make me feel worse.

I think I'm a little bit wacko now. It's like I actually ENJOY doing Maths hw and especially challenging Maths questions. Dunno why. It's actually like therapy for me. It's my way of forgetting about my problems I guess. It's just freaky. Cos like I never knew I had this aptitude for Maths before. Then I get all stressed when I can't solve them. But when I do, I feel so proud of myself. Sheesh...must be the Genevieve syndrome. She has this habit of saying "I'm so talented!" when she solves a Maths question before me. We try and do questions before Mr Khoo touches on them...some sort of lame competition I guess. I feel like a nerd in my class.

Anyway I did this cool test on Facebook. It's what kind of instrument are you. I got clarinet. sounds pretty much like me, except for the looking posh part! (:

You are quiet, reserved, but very creative. A lot of people don't seem to understand you because you have your own 'beat'. You enjoy both the light and dark side of life, and sometimes this comes off as a little creepy. You are sometimes too quiet, you need to learn to speak up!!! You are very intrepretive and creative in your workplace/activities and tend to be a good follower. You often dislike confrontation and would rather just forget problems, as opposed to fighting or talking about them. You love to read and write, and love to look very 'Posh'. Although you are often misunderstood, you are undoubtably cool.

Haha btw, been doing some deep thinking on Kat's wise words on Thursday post-training. Still reflecting on them....but nevertheless I admit, they are true. Kudos to you Kat, you have great potential in becoming a counsellor/psychologist. Trying to move on from reflection to action. Wish me luck!

laugh!

If you can learn to laugh in spite

of the circumstances that surround you,

you will enrich others, enrich yourself,

and more than that, you will last.

~BARBARA JOHNSON, APRIL 18

Had a talk with ms chng today after school..seems like she's gna get alot of sec 4s to go to RJC.. I felt demoralised when she said that i don't know why. maybe cos she never bothered to ask sec 3s? I can tell she feels a connection with the sec 4s. not us.. It ain't her fault anyway, we don't like speaking up. She says we have team spirit that brought us this far. Well of course we have..3/4 of us are from sec4! so of course they're happy.

Sorta had a talk with angie and amanda..they seem to agree with me. Ahh wat to say. they are so stressed. and they thought I was..but we're not gna tell the two others till they cool down. I was disappointed in ***r****'s reaction. very. great now i've become a villain. but i don't really care.. as in I know whats going on but it just is not making me stressed or whatnots. I thank the Lord for my calamity(: cos it surely won't do me any good behaving like them. I think it'll be good to hav a private session for the class com on monday? But meanwhile i'll be praying for them. and myself, to say the right things cos some ppl can get a bit twitchy.. (:

Don't Give Up!!

Be strong, Cedar Blazers...Be strong, Amanda(:

We can do this.

Must~Can~Will.

For my dear friends...

Hey this is for the ppl i know who aren't feeling in their peak right now(:

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,

When the funds are low, and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won had he stuck it out,

Don't give up though the pace seems slow,

You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are

It may be near when it seems so far,

So stick to the flight when you're hardest hit,

It's when things seem worse,

that you must not quit.

Don't be sad k? Be brave and shake all the pain and stress away(: i'll always be there when you need me... love ya!

<3kat

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee...

Broken shells represent tears, pain,

struggle...but they are also valuable

for teaching faith, courage, and strength.

Thank You for the precious gift of faith that keeps

me strong when I am weak...that keeps me going

when it would be easier to quit.

~CAROL HAMLET ADAMS

heehee tests are finally OVERRRRRR(: stayed up real late last night and even woke up 1hr earlier today to do what? study my INTESTINES. yay! They are really the most intrudging topic, especially when i saw the picture of our important villis. I almost puked.

hahaha yes mandy(: i picked this pic cos that was how i felt when i found out i couldnt' play netball for quite a while:( ah..how i miss netball. you know i've been feeling pretty useless whenever i go down. cos all i can do is shout and encourage. I guess encouragement is important, but then you see your teammates cry and you can't do anything to help them on court or whatsoever its really quite sad.

Hey mandy? do you know wei li spells your name as mandi?? cool huh. it looks italian(: or is it indian?? haha i rmb we used to give you eng, chi, malay and tamil names..

today, we had a small grp discussion between me n some other ppl frm class and a monitress frm another (names are confidential). We were talking abt our class..we feel that they are uncooperative.

They don't do duty, don't listen to the class com, and we sorta get on the nerves of the trs. I guess i'm not a good role model either...can't blame them. Just that i had hope in this class..

So we planned to carry out a trash talk, just don't know when. most probably tmr. that's what we wanted i guess, the sooner the better. we even searched the school for mr tan at 3:30 after my test. then when we couldn't find him we called his hp..he was havin lunch at the hawker centre.

whoo. i really hope we can work this out. i mean we'll be tgt for 2 yrs! nat, how does your class cooperate with you so well?? how did you hypnotise them man! :D

ohoh, update me on your napfa results and tests too! love you all(:

Helloos!!

Haha don't know what to say now. You guys have mentioned everything...from tests to netball matches to sports day. Hmmm....

I love that pic of the netball pole! Can I use that as my msn pic pls???

and btw the tests last week were terrible. but shan't reveal too much to kat.

Haha my class buzz@canteen tmr. think we gonna die. cos today then we know what we're gonna do tmr. without even one full practice session. oh well. tell me what you guys think of it yeah? oh and kat your class was so hyper! but you should have used a mike to sing. we couldnt hear the lyrics at times. like i only heard the tune of superman-its not easy to be me and the last part about 'i will survive, i will survive' part.

anyway, well done to our b div netballers! we are absolutely proud of you guys. now cedar netballers can boast to be the 4th best netball school in singapore!! ahahaha.

and yeah how come i was banned from running on sports day? thats so mean. cos like we suspect someone tampered with my class list and in almost every event, when we had 3 people signed up, only 1 was on the official list but all 3 were on the ticked class list. haix. end up my class so pathetic. so few points. then a few people cried. kind of sad yeah? just realised my class is not only gay and full of nonsense but also a rather emo bunch. suits me i guess...

anyway gtg now...exceeded my time limit on the comp. off to study some bio and do maths hw! bye!! (:

Finals!!

hey tmr's the finals..i guess i'm pretty excited, cos i think we can beat raffles and it will be an exciting game(: But its at 1:30 so i'll have to leave class straight after recess!! Speakin of recess, buzz@canteen tmr..gosh. ah i don't want to think abt it. i'm quite good at shuttin things out of my mind(: it comes with practice(: like how i shut out studies in the midst of tests..quite cool huh:P that's why i'm still survivin i guess.

Today i have sorta made up my mind about what i want to be next time. Well actually i've already had the idea since last yr.. a PSYCHIATRIST(: or councelor(:
I just have a feeling its my kinda thing really..

Cos a pastor came today to share..and he had so many doctorates and masters and degrees in things to do with these kind of stuff that i wanted but never dreamed of havin all at one go! i guess there is nothing impossible with God(:
he was a chain smoker, gambler, and alchoholic and actually went to jail at 16..but still. :O

oh and todays quote sorta answered me for yesterdays "rampage"..

Peace is a journey of a thousand miles

and it must be taken one step at a time.

~Lyndon B. Johnson

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ah...i am soo irritated with my sis. super. sometimes i see her i feel like punching her. Fine ah just go ahead and start rolling your eyes lor..its gna just roll out one day. i can't even study in peace.
urgh. i feel like i hate her..but then i know i don't. if i didn't like her, i won't cry over it. i don't understand why she doesn't understand. its just so frustrating! i guess its the phase..i just hope it ends soon.

Hm yesterday was a sorta exciting day for me(: ah maybe exciting night:P hahaha nat and man you'll don't go and think waiwai ah..

haha nat i guess cos you took part in the events yesterday so it was fun but mine was pretty boring. I was quite tired really..and was havin a bit of a headache. was stoning most of the time. Our cheerleaders were pretty sadd..they were aiming for 1st or 2nd.

went for lunch at cafe cartel..that place always reminds me of the time we had lunch after EYE's last yr..haha anw, we saw mrs ouyang there!! ack! hahaha and the waitress said that they ran out of set meals so we wanted to leave. but somebody didn't want to go cos she thought leavin was embarrassing..

hahaha bella and michelle are so funny(: we were sorta sendin secret message signals to each other(: to sneak out and run away and stuff, it was quite amusing.. hmm we ran away discretely after payin..heehee(: the other 3 went to watch a movie but we passed and said we wanted to go home. but we didn't! well not for 10 minutes we didn't(:(: we walked arnd j8 and went up the escalator...and went back down again cos bella's mom called. (btw fyi, the bread at cafe cartel was our main course:P)

but the interestin part was after i went home.. i had DURIAN!! WHOO! havn't had that in like a year?? haha! okayokay, so eunice THE asked me to meet at 5:30 at tpy stn. took a ride frm mom while she sent my sis to gymnastics then took a bus there. reached at 5:10 and waited...and waited...and waited. while waitin, i walked arnd and watched abit of CJ7(: she arrived at 5:50. thanks alot eunice!!

so we went and ate at macs then met her frens at the stn and stood for the whole ride to Expo. ouch! We went into the place and saw 8 other cedarians..stella, jiahui, beatrice yeo, emily, jiarong,a band person and 2 amandas(: we were there to watch the PLANET SHAKERS concert!! whee! it started at 7:30 and ended at 10:30. the drummer was super muscular but had a constipated look on his face..i think he was usin alot of energy.

thus with lotsa jumpin and singin/shoutin, it ended. I was bummed out..whew. took a ride home from eunice's dad(: it was 11:40pm. I slept immediately(:

my buzz@canteen is in 2 days time.. we aren't very prepared..sigh oh wells. i will resign as monitress next yr. haha monday is also our last game against rgs..MUST CAN WILL!

Each of us is God's special work of art.

~ Joni Eareckson Tada

I like her name... its so "Ta-Da!" :P haha okay gtg mug now.. bye!

P.s i've done the tagboard alr!! <3

SPORTS DAY

Hi!!

HAPPY SPORTS DAY!!!

Man! You got banned from running today right? Cause you weren't on the official list or something.. HIAYO. Why eh?

Kat. You got 10 WEEKS MC??! Gosh.
You also get to do ur tests NEXT week!! AHH! no fair! hmph.

So. Today's sports day:) GARDE WON! Yippee:D Oh and Man, your class got second for 4 times 400m right? Congrats!! The cedar spirit was so strong today and the school song was sung with such gusto and pride! (As compared to the times when we sing it at morning assembly) haha.

Anyways, all the best kat for ur upcoming tests!

LOVE YALL.

6 weeks... I WILL SURVIVE!

went for my check up tday..skipped A-maths test:P

Dac says "you've almost recovered...better not make it worse...i give you 6 weeks mc." shit. i don't like the doc. Wat a bummer. by the time 6 weeks has gone by the term would've ended. I had thought givin me a 4weeks mc the other time was the worst he could do..now he's givin me extra 6. that makes 10 weeks. WHOOOOOOHOOOO!!! now no more NAPHA for good. He is a mean doctor.

Yesterday the projector in my class exploded (do you know why my AV REP man?? haha!) ms tan turned on the projector rite, then it suddenly went "POW POW POW!". Yups everything around me is exploding now adays.. but then school is enjoyable cos of that(:

Oh! i almost forgot to say.. something good out of all things happened today(: mrs yeo said that she'll take all our test papers and give it to us next week where she'll invigilate us..meaning NO TESTS THIS WEEK!!! whoohoo! and so while you guys are sweating inside with the test papers along with 30+ (or 20+ in mand's case,) sangu, fi and i will be doing revision outside(:(: ahhh, the priviledges of a netballer in trg...or in my case.. nvm. it'll be cool, just the three of us sittin tgt doing test papers.

just us 3.

not like my napha. or 'supposed-to-be-napha'..just me an' the tr. I run 6 rounds arnd the empty track, the tr stands by the side with a stopwatch. *shudder* haha! I thank the Lord for His help in my time of need and crisis(: I think i'll start writing those quotes i read everyday from my "My Beautiful Broken Shell~Words of Hope to Refresh Your Soul". Well its not really mine..i sorta found it somewhere..haha(:

"We have been in God's thought from

all eternity, and in His creative love,

His attention never leaves us."

~MICHAEL QUOIST

April 8

i'm looking forward to seein you guys on thurs!! love ya all(: