Hi there!

Saw the Cedar Blaze blog already! Looks great! Hope that this will help us bond better (:

Haix....did so badly for pure Geog test. Well, in retrospect, Mrs Koh said that half the class failed so seeing as to how I passed rather safely, I SHOULD be happy right? Wrong! I'm so angry with myself. I mean I felt like crying in class today during Geog period. I was about 80% there already, except I realised that I didn't want to make a fool of myself. I mean, Mrs Koh was like staring at me with that kind of," What happened to you? I'm so disappointed in your results. I expected much better."look.

I can't believe I could have done so badly for the test. When Mrs Koh went through the answers, I realised I actually knew all the answers, I could have aced the whole test like the last one, it was that easy. But I totally interpreted the questions wrongly. How could I? Mrs Koh was like," I want to give you all time to reflect and think about what went wrong during this test." Man!! It took all of my willpower to not burst out crying. Mrs Koh called out some people(presumably those who failed quite badly I think) for a one-to-one talk. I wished she called me. Then I could tell her, "Yes I DID study, I KNOW the answers but I somehow didn't manage to write them out. Please kill me now." Gvv thought I was joking but I really meant it at that time and I DO mean it now too.

Anyway, I am quite relieved that my Chinese group managed to escape presenting our project today but that means that I have to present it tomorrow as the first group. Hmm...wish me luck!

Hi!

Saw the cedar blaze blog! It's NICE.. but nobody has posted anything yet!!

Oh man Kat. You have got to make a move on the homework (especially chinese)! Good luck to you. Man. Are you alright? You seem a little far away.. like on another planet or something. Keep us informed about any of ur problems or anything ok? We are so totally here for ya. So don't fret yea?

LOVE YOU GUYS:)

zZz..

whoo i'm still on the com..

sometimes i like my hair, sometimes i don't.
i like it when it dries after i've just showered
(cept jus now when i sat in front of the fan n now i have a side which looks like its been exposed to an explosion),
and when i wake up in the mornin.

But after that its really crappy.
I want to cut my hair. ):

i'm tired. but i have to bring chi tmr..
and i hav spent 5hrs on the com.
the best part is, i havn't done a thing! :O

WHEEWHEEWHEE(:

HAHA YAY FOR 3SOME-UNDERSOME(:

hmm wow i guess we all have been havin troubles..haha mine was small but i just kicked up a big fuss:P nothin really so stop worryin! Hey Mandy, i know you don't like to tell out loud these kinda stuff, but if that makes you feel good then we'll let it be that way(: but i seem to be noticing you in "outer space" like i told you on the bus that day.

NATASHA! you ah. i don't know what to say. Why must you be so secretive?? Hahaha if it's anu you are worryin abt, i promise i won't say anth. I won't tell a soul!!! WHY DON'T YOU WANT TO SHARE YOUR A-MATHS RESULTS?? HAHA FINE.

To gain that which is worth having,
it may be necessary to lose everything else.
BERNDETTE DELVIN

HAVE TOS:

I have to start exercising.

I have to do NAPFA.

I want to play captain's ball with my class tmr.

I have to learn my juniors' names.

I have to learn to manage my time. unlike wat i'm doin now.

I need sleep.

I need my 2 frens which one seems to hav gone bonkers and the other senile.

I have to make my table partner talk more so that she will tell me where's she's going before she runs away for 3 periods and make me train for my 2.4km prematurely and miss ms chngs chem demo (which i still finished before the others so pat on the back for me!)

I have to concentrate on my chinese project and not get distracted.

I have to learn how not to get distracted.

MUST CAN WILL

P.s. cedarblaze blog is now open!! whee! www.cedarblaze.blogspot.com. i think:P

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

Sigh..

Aren't we a jolly lot.

Hmm.. well yes, being in the class com is a very stressful thing. Cooperation is the most important quality a class should possess. To make life easier. And help us sprout less white hairs.. My class ain't wat i would call the Most Wonderful Cooperative Class but hey, at least they listen. Or try to.. i dunno actually. I feel kinda messed up. Hiax. Life is so confusing.

Well about the sec three netball team issue, i feel that we are really one lot of low esteem-ed ppl. We really need to work on our confidence. And LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE.. Yeah. And BELIEVE that we can do it. By that i mean at least trying to get into the school team next year and earning the respect i know we really deserve from our darling juniors.

So, my fabulous buddies.
Cheer up ok! Remember, as kat says, God is always here for us. Through thick and thin, sorrow and happiness:) He LOVES us. Yeah so just always rmb to tell him all that hurts.. he'll make it hurt less, he'll help lighten that heavy load that's burdening you. Trust me, he knows exactly how you are feeling and he knows all your problems before you've even said them to him. You'll feel a LOAD better knowing that someone is listening to you and everything you have to say:)

Kat, hope you aren't gettting too stressed over the class com issue. Don't worry, God will help you pull through. It'll all be over before you know it:)

Man, whatever problems you have (i didn't know they even existed - thought that you were happy and carefree) feel absolutely free to tell them to me and kat k? We're more than willing to lend an ear:) Oh and WOW. I didn't know you love maths. Huh, another new fascinating fact that i have come to learn about you..

So keep on smiling people, and hold your heads high cause ain't no one or anything going to block our path to happiness!

CHEERS.

(:

You know what. I think each day, God is answering all my problems. By telling it to my face.

Snuggle in God's arms. When you are hurting,

when you feel lonely...let Him cradle you,

comfort you, reassure you of His

all-sufficient power and love.

~KAY ARTHUR APRIL 20

haha thanks mandy(: ah yes maths is such a blessing ain't it! bleahhh. hahaha(: I don't seem to have the mood to do it though...

What's with all the emo-ness?

Hey guys!! Was just wondering what's up with you all!

Esp Kat, hey don't get too stressed out over your class comm thingy...my class is also not cooperative at all (I'm one of the main culprits who don't actually DO anything but at least i don't talk when any of my class comm members are speaking to the class) It's not that we DON't WANT TO DO ANYTHING, it's just that we DON'T KNOW HOW TO GO ABOUT DOING THE STUFF. Haha actually I think monitresses have a really tough job. So keep perservering on yeah?

Actually I've been feeling kind of down and out recently, I've got lots of things on my mind. All of different scopes. I don't feel like listing them out because it'll only make me feel worse.

I think I'm a little bit wacko now. It's like I actually ENJOY doing Maths hw and especially challenging Maths questions. Dunno why. It's actually like therapy for me. It's my way of forgetting about my problems I guess. It's just freaky. Cos like I never knew I had this aptitude for Maths before. Then I get all stressed when I can't solve them. But when I do, I feel so proud of myself. Sheesh...must be the Genevieve syndrome. She has this habit of saying "I'm so talented!" when she solves a Maths question before me. We try and do questions before Mr Khoo touches on them...some sort of lame competition I guess. I feel like a nerd in my class.

Anyway I did this cool test on Facebook. It's what kind of instrument are you. I got clarinet. sounds pretty much like me, except for the looking posh part! (:

You are quiet, reserved, but very creative. A lot of people don't seem to understand you because you have your own 'beat'. You enjoy both the light and dark side of life, and sometimes this comes off as a little creepy. You are sometimes too quiet, you need to learn to speak up!!! You are very intrepretive and creative in your workplace/activities and tend to be a good follower. You often dislike confrontation and would rather just forget problems, as opposed to fighting or talking about them. You love to read and write, and love to look very 'Posh'. Although you are often misunderstood, you are undoubtably cool.

Haha btw, been doing some deep thinking on Kat's wise words on Thursday post-training. Still reflecting on them....but nevertheless I admit, they are true. Kudos to you Kat, you have great potential in becoming a counsellor/psychologist. Trying to move on from reflection to action. Wish me luck!

laugh!

If you can learn to laugh in spite

of the circumstances that surround you,

you will enrich others, enrich yourself,

and more than that, you will last.

~BARBARA JOHNSON, APRIL 18

Had a talk with ms chng today after school..seems like she's gna get alot of sec 4s to go to RJC.. I felt demoralised when she said that i don't know why. maybe cos she never bothered to ask sec 3s? I can tell she feels a connection with the sec 4s. not us.. It ain't her fault anyway, we don't like speaking up. She says we have team spirit that brought us this far. Well of course we have..3/4 of us are from sec4! so of course they're happy.

Sorta had a talk with angie and amanda..they seem to agree with me. Ahh wat to say. they are so stressed. and they thought I was..but we're not gna tell the two others till they cool down. I was disappointed in ***r****'s reaction. very. great now i've become a villain. but i don't really care.. as in I know whats going on but it just is not making me stressed or whatnots. I thank the Lord for my calamity(: cos it surely won't do me any good behaving like them. I think it'll be good to hav a private session for the class com on monday? But meanwhile i'll be praying for them. and myself, to say the right things cos some ppl can get a bit twitchy.. (:

Don't Give Up!!

Be strong, Cedar Blazers...Be strong, Amanda(:

We can do this.

Must~Can~Will.

For my dear friends...

Hey this is for the ppl i know who aren't feeling in their peak right now(:

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,

When the funds are low, and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won had he stuck it out,

Don't give up though the pace seems slow,

You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are

It may be near when it seems so far,

So stick to the flight when you're hardest hit,

It's when things seem worse,

that you must not quit.

Don't be sad k? Be brave and shake all the pain and stress away(: i'll always be there when you need me... love ya!

<3kat