hm.
hahaha I did a long post that day, then decided not to post it. :P
nat and manz! Go check it out(:

Sunshine came to stay over at my place ytd xD
Ohgosh it was so hilarious.
Of the 7 yrs I've been staying where I am, ytd was the first day i got caught in the rain while walking home!! Hahaha so we crapped in a nearby carpark while waiting for the rain to stop. ohman so embarrassing.
Then reached home and finished math papers!! haha we're nerds i tell you!
hmm then I used the comp, but dunno why, first time it didn't want to shut down or do anything! (usually it likes to shut down by itself.)
Then went down and watched 'The Proud Family' or smth like that. HAHA we are so deprived.

ah, we mad scientist partners cannot rest without doing some science! xP
like the day we almost blew up the chem lab, or when we dug our hands into a sheeps heart..oh the good ole days!
heh anw, we snapped on our latex gloves and..made a man. :O
HAHAHA eh, it was difficult ):
we wanted to take pictures of our hard work, then when i was gna snap, there was a black out!
So we roamed around with candles..so romantic eh!

JIAYOU NATASHA AND EVERYONE ELSE FOR MOTHER TONGUE O'S TMR! :D
will be praying for you! Get well soon yeah?
p.s. can't wait for friday!

God bless!

God can do wonders with a broken heart
if you just give Him all the pieces.
Victor Alfsen

aye..so many things running thru my head.
confused.
so much time to think..none used.
I wonder what's wrong with me these days.
I need to get back
things are not what they seem anymore..i can't remain like this.

So many songs..I want to sing to you.
yet no words can compromise the way i feel.
its so balskdjfosdferijaewjfkdkl.
messed.
ohh why can't i turn off the radiooo.

I've been having dreams..like every other night.
Somehow i dreamt of falcon.
not once, but twice.
first one, i didn't see, i only heard voices.
they were given a near impossible task..but they didn't give up, they didn't whine
instead i heard them encouraging each other, telling themselves that they were gna make it.
and. it was a success. They did it!
Nothing is impossible, if you set your mind towards it.

the second, wasn't so much of talk, it was action.
They were everything i wanted them to be..not the bestest, nor the most enthu or entertaining or strongest or fastest or whatever.
What they did, was to look me in the eye, answer me when i spoke, and gave me their attention.
Just that bottom line of respect. (:
That's all i want.
To be treated like what i say actually means something.
If only that were true. I'd be more than proud (:

Netball today was fun!
haha havn't been enjoyin trg for quite some time now..
weili and ms chng both came down(:
then two other trainee coaches came, plus the main coach; lisa, national team coach!
She's tall. :O
My arms and legs look like they've been abused. By my skipping rope.
owww it hurt. I had like 6, 7 red lines on each arm man. yeoww!!
either the ropes too short, or i'm too tall. I'll take the 2nd option(:(:
So they sorta coached us to train for a test..hm. why are we still making these mistakes after all these years??
Ahwell, i've deproved too. My legs totally did not belong to my body today. ugh.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand, the jersey lady arrived! (:(:(:
Everythings decided ;)
heh it was just you and me today.
yikes sorry i keep um. yeah. wrong areas ah. xP

After trg was... heh. heh.
aye, failed meeting!
btw, i'm sorry i neglected both of you):
I was really really really really glad you came..it finally felt that, you cared.
But i guess i got carried away..
and i can feel the strain.
why?

haha nat!
i noticed your font looks like your handriting :D

zZz..i'm tired.
G'night ppl!
God bless(:

The Lord is truly our Saviour.

Going for the Youth Archdiocesan (ACTIV8 - Receive the power) was truly awesome and an eye-opener for me:) I'm SO happy i went. Just feeling the vibe, the hunger for God all around me, was enough to nearly bring tears to my eyes. Everyone was just on their feet praising the Lord, singing their hearts out. wow what an awesome experience. And such excitement to see so MANY youths, just like me, having the same, if not stronger connection and love for God.

Oh, how i yearn to receive the Holy Spirit, to be empowered to help & love everyone around me, no matter what the cost, what the sacrifice. I've always wanted to go overseas on a missionary trip, but now i know that it can all begin from right here in Singapore, my home. Missionary trips can come later on in life, perhaps in my 20s. But right now, i got to set that spark off, to love thy neighbour as God loves us so.

Oh Jesus how i love thee! Thank you so much for bringing me through all those moments of pain. All those moments of suffering, although i know i have yet to realise what true pain is, what the true meaning of suffering is. But i know, i have faith that you will be the one who will be by my side with each step i take throughout my life. Thank you.

Thank you for my awesome friends (yup, mandy & kathleen that includes you guys). You have worked through them to bring me joy, happiness and most importantly, friendship:)

PRAISE THE LORD!

Here the links to the some of the songs that we sang last saturday. Hopefully you will feel as touched by the Holy Spirit as i was:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwWYfwuTeaw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iwoEU2uVDfw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7Sf0U7RKOI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GI5Yiyv5O0s

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Y8zP34AhuU


lots of <3
TASHI.

Btc is finally over..after all the running like mad chickens, the stress, the scoldings, the tension, the late nights after debriefs, rushing proposals, revising and worrying..its over. (:

Maybe i said all that a little too late? I didn't have a chance to say. I believed in second chances and i didn't want to spoil the mood in the first few days..i thought you would change. And you did. For the worse. I guess maybe I just couldn't stand it anymore. I couldn't even scold, or be angry..I didn't have enough energy or strength left in me to do that. Somehow you didn't really turn out like what I wanted you to. But then again, i love you for who you are, falcon.
You don't know that I would've broke down right in front of you yesterday. My hands were shaking again..it was one. against eleven. Whatever i said then and there was what I truly felt. There was no other person there to waver anything. Of course i had more to say, but i left it there..cos I know that actually, there was not much more i can do than to tell you. Nothing can be changed now. And what's over, is over. I was not pinpointing anyone, you are a team. One falls everyone falls.
We still have a month left, lets just move forward now okay? Your team is strong but the heart is weak. But I havn't given up on you. And i never will. (:

Haha, I really have to thank the instrs who gave me a hug ytd(:
Yes I almost teared when you teared, and I did when another of you almost did ):
But in the end, all is not lost! Jiayoujiayou!!
I must thank the cc dept (pronounced 'sissy department') for all the crazy times and laughter and tummy pains, special mention to: The CC Head, Maytavee!
The CC Second Head, Grace Tang the Awesome! (yes you put that in my phone ah you!)
My Fellow Kuku CC Attached, Wanehhhhhhhhhhh!
Sissy's unite!! Hahahahahahah cannot break your promise ah, must go work tgt this holsxD
just hope we don't get fired for being to extraordinarily lame.
Whoot! I think we're the most amazing ppl can! (cept extra waneh. :P kidding)
Haha i know we started out as 3 busy bees..all three of us had like. So many positions to keep and things to chase!! Then we bought an attached from an orrienteering merchant:D HAHAHAHA but she managed to chase all the things away(:(:

aye.
A bit of rest before we start chionging COALs proposals yeah?
whew.
Now gotta settle the nb stuff.
I called the jersey lady today!! hahaha so accomplished(:(:

okay. this is long
I shall go now..last day of sch tmr! Busybusybusy xP
Seeya!
God bless!! (:

hey kat, mind telling us what happened with your Falcons?

and where's natasha? she hasn't blogged since....the after exam celebratory post i think.


ok i guess i've been feeling a bit hot-tempered recently to the people around me, the whole of last week, i've been snapping at a lot of people and losing my temper so easily, i would have liked to think it was PMS, but obviously i couldn't use it anymore as the week went on cos it should have been last week. so i would like to apologise to anyone who felt annoyed by my bad temper this whole week. thanks for sticking it out with me. (:

this week hasn't been particularly tough or anything but i'm dealing with some issues (that happened all at once from all angles) rather poorly. yeah that's all i've got to say, actually there's lots more, but it's not for the whole world to see. and i'm mostly fine now, i'm just gonna seek refuge on the solid rock ala Jesus, my shepherd.

God bless,
(:

OCTOBER 19
is the day, that i was conceived again!

Psalm 40:6-8
Sacrifice and offering you did not desire,
but my ears you have pierced;
burnt offerings and sin offerings
you did not require.
Then I said," Here I am, I have come-
it is written about me in the scroll.
I desire to do your will, O my God;
Your law is within my heart.

THANK YOU NATASHA AND EUNICE FOR COMING!! :D
And dad for the lovely new bible!!!!!! xD

FALCON.
I must admit i never expected that. You left me without words..even now i don't know what to say.

Each dawn holds a new hope
for a new plan, making the start
of each day the start of a new life.
~Gina Blair

You walked with me,

Footprints in the sand,

And helped me understand,

Where I'm going,

You walked with me,

When I was all alone,

With so much unknown,

Along the way,

Then I heard you say,

I promise you,

I'm always there,

When your heart is filled with sorrow,

And despair, I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life flash across the sky,

So many times have I been so afraid.

And just when I,

I thought I lost my way,

You gave me strength to carry on,

That's when you say,

I promise you I'm always there

When your heart is filled

With sorrow and despair

Oh, I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand.

When I'm with you,

Well I know you've been there,

And I can feel you when you say,

I promise you

I'm always there

When your heart is filled

With sadness and despair

I'll carry you when you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand.

When your heart is full of

Sadness and despair,

I'll carry you when you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand.

hey this song is Leona Lewis- Footprints in the Sand.

It's a really beautiful song, your heart will melt when you hear her sing this.

actually this song reminds me of the Footprints in the Sand story. In case any of you don't know it, it goes like this.

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD. When the last scene of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints.I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints,it was then that I carried you."

All credit to the author.(I think it's Mary Stevenson)

i thank you so much Lord, for being there for me, all the time. when it seems like my world is caving in and no one understands me, i know i can go to you, and everything would be ok. i'm overwhelmed by your love, and thank you so much once more, for carrying me through all my sorrows and troubles, past present or future. i love you Jesus, and i love you Lord, because....you first loved me. i simply can't thank you enough, i'm so honoured be your child, Lord, now and forever more. thank you so much.

First day of btc.
oh tired, i am. So many things going through my mind, there are. So busy it is, nowadays. whoo.
Haha.
What with all these, experiences..
eh, Poh! Removed it, she has (:
though i don't know if thats a good sign or not.. STOP LAUGHING LAH. ): not funny!! Lousy bird! :D

We must accept finite disappointment,
but we must never lose infinite hope.
~Barbara Johnson

Okay, you've ruined my train of thoughts!!
haha not that i had any in the first place, but. :P


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