hey kat!

haiyo why you so like that huh? i shall just go straight to talking about the carnival yesterday. actually i dont know why you didnt post this on the blazers blog. but anyway, i shall just say on behalf of the whole team, that we are sorry if you thought that we weren't serious enough/played well enough/showed respect towards you, our captain enough or whatever.

you know what? i'm not gonna pretend anymore. i just want to put my hands up and admit i'm probably the biggest culprit. you said i'm the first one to wipe away the tears from your eyes. i disagree. i admit it ok? yesterday i didn't play seriously enough. i didn't motivate myself enough. worst of all, i didn't try my best in certain matches. ok i'm not proud of myself. i dont want to make excuses but i think a major reason had to be because i was playing GD thanks to the absence of Nat and Husna. i didnt have the confidence i think.

i think i really have to work on my attitude. during certain matches, i really motivated myself to work hard. but during other times, i was like 'urgh! i can't stand this!' and then i stop playing as well as i should. during yesterday's debrief, i told everyone i didnt play well. which was seriously how i felt. (you're not the only one to feel like a loser yesterday) but you said that i had played not bad. i was frustrated and disappointed. i didnt deserve any praise. i hadnt even tried my best in some matches. haiya, anyway to cut it short, i feel really disgruntled( that seems to be my fav word recently) that i let the whole team down. i mean everyone was trying their best and there i was, sulking and all...

i know this post seems rather emo or something but its really how i feel. school reopens tomorrow, i don't know if i'm looking forward to it. i suppose so, since i don't want to look backwards.

so here's to a good Term 3 for the 3some undersome and the blazers!

mandy

p.s. to be honest, kat, we were rather surprised at your 'emo-ing' yesterday since it's so not you. keep working on it but remember you are the undisputed captain in our hearts. btw, sorry for upseting you and all that yeah? hope you feel much better now.