Everybody's always talking at me
Everybody's trying to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talking
I need to count on myself instead

Chorus:
Did you ever?
Loose yourself to get what you want
Did you ever?
Get on a ride and wanna get off

Did you ever?
Push away the ones you should've held close
Did you ever let go?
Did you ever not know?

I'm not gonna stop, that's who I am
I'll give it all I got, that is my plan
Will I find what I lost?
You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
(Bet on me)
I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

How will I know if there's a path worth taking?
Should I question every move I make?
With all I`ve lost my heart is breaking
I don't wanna make the same mistake

Chorus:
Did you ever?
Doubt your dream will ever come true
Did you ever?
Blame the world and never blame you
I will never
Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game if I can't play it my way

I'm not gonna stop, that's who I am
(Who I am)
I'll give it all I got, that is my plan
(That's my plan)
Will I find what I lost?
You know you can
(You know you can)
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on me

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

Oh,Hold up
Give me room to think
Bring it on down
Gotta work on my swing
Gotta do my own thing
Hold up

It's no good at all
To see yourself and not recognize your face
Out on my own, it's such a scary place

The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do is believe

I'm not gonna stop
Not gonna stop 'til I get my shot
That's who I am, that is my plan
Will I end up on top?
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

You can bet on me

hey recently i've been following the olympics like everyone else.

it's such a great feeling isn't it? the honour of representing your country in such a prestigious tournament.

you see the athletes produce incredible back-breaking feats, world records, etc. and then you think of the hard work they went through just to achieve all that, and how it's all paid off for them.

you see people like michael phelps, unbelievably talented and such a confident swimmer, on course for his 8 gold medal record.

you see people like tao li, always breaking barriers. i believe she will get a medal one day. maybe in london 2012 or 2016 olympics.

you see people like dara torres, 41, a mother, who's still raring to go against the youngsters.

all inspirational stories, guaranteed headliners. but what about those who fail? is there really no place for losers in sports?

people like katie hoff the american swimmer. she was aiming to be the female michael phelps, with a target of 6 gold medals in swimming. alas, it was not to be as her first race got her a bronze medal only, her second race, she led from the 50m mark but was pipped to the end by someone else at the last 0.5m. absolutely heart breaking. the cameras paused a while from showing the winner's delight to show katie hoff. she was slumped against the wall, her face one of absolute disappointment and agony. i felt sad for her. all those years of training and preparation and leading from the start, to be beaten by what, less than a fraction of a second? but never mind. she's only 19, her best years are still ahead of her, perhaps the next olympics will be her time.

people like alain bernard, the french swimmer who was part of the french 4 by 100m relay swim. he was such a phenomenal final swimmer for the french team, he led them for about 95m of the 100m he was swimming, just about to give france a gold medal in the 4 by 100m relay when suddenly, jason lezzak(ithink that is his name) of the USA pops up and touches the world like 0.08 secs before him, to preserve michael phelps's bid of 8 gold medals goes on for this olympics. (phelps was one of the members of the USA relay team.) the winners were of course ecstatic. but the french, they were shaking their heads in disbelief, wondering how they let that gold medal slip away just like that.

i wish michael phelps all the best in his quest for olympic swimming immortality, as well as the others i have mentioned above in their remaining races.

yeah so what i want to say is that, in sports, there will always be a winner and a loser. you may try so hard sometimes, but just come up short when you almost get there. this olympics, i hope people will not just celebrate the winners like michael phelps but also the people who may not have won but have tried, all in the spirit of the olympics!

i would like to wish everyone a great time watching the olympics!

<3
mandy(:

p.s. i think you know what i'm going to do in my free time from now till aug 24th the end of the olympics right?

p.p.s. and EPL starting soon!(this sat) i'm so gonna be spoilt for choice. really!

HEYHEY(:

Okay, shall blog about anything interesting that has been happening these days..
FRIDAY
National day eve! hmmm. School was okay but a bit disappointing for the celebrations): the hall was hot and stuffy cos no aircon so i guess it 'dampened' everyones mood. heh. everyone came out looking like they've just been to the sauna:P
But lotsa ppl liked our Blazers' shirt:D Most asked qn: why does your's say resto(red)? were you once broken?
Haha! well, yes. I was. I couldn't really explain then, but i pointed to Tricia's shirt which said "The Perfect Lamb"...and said "it's because of that" (:

Tent pitching! It was well..dragged til 3+ ): but was expected. Before that, Mr Tan got us pizzas(: Paired up with JiaHui to pitch our Basha tent. whoo i still rmb what it's called! heh. We went through lots of difficulty and made mistakes, like pitching it ontop a flower patch (I saw bugssss!!!! D:) and using the concorde rope (okay i think thats the name of a plane..i forgot what it's called, smth cord:P) which was quite smooth so the canvas kept slipping, etc etc, but in the end, we managed to keep it up, and i must say, job well done! :D
Went to sangu's hse after that, with syazza(:
stayed and watched half a movie D: hahahaha and some other silly stuff, like gettin a call from silly nat and eve who got chased by a cat which undone eve's shoelaces XD
The bus ride home....was. Fascinating. I tell you, I thought i'd grow a beard before I reached home! Gosh. I was going insane on that bus. Syazza could tell:P And the ppl there were quite weird. Shall not elaborate, cept that they thought they were signing up for SBS idol or smth.

SATURDAY
Went to Pasir Ris Park to celebrate ND with my church(:
The weather was really good and the beach was very still and calm...
Haha the part i enjoyed most though, was playing frisbee with my dad(:(: hmm..talking abt that, HI DAD! I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS(:(: TAG IF YOU CAN! XD I LOVE YOU!!
haha yeahh, it's been a long time since we've done something together..I really appreciate everything you do though you might not know. Like everytime you give me a hug or a kiss on the forehead..Haha! I'm still a kid at heart yo! XD

I've been thinking lately
how some ppl look forward to the day
where they'd shake hands with someone famous..
to get a plaque of achievement..
a medal or badge of honour..in front of a huge crowd.

then i think.
what do i look forward to?
I'd like,
a day where those around me, appreciate what i do.
That's all i want.
Just a "thank you", "great job", a pat on the back
or just a smile of gratitude.
You don't know how much that brightens my day..
whether family, friends, or teammates.
that's all you have to do.

The LORD knows me well(:
He knows me more than I do myself..no wonder He has provided for my needs!! He's given me a few special people..
To think i've never noticed till now, and taken them for granted.

It's nice, to come back late at night after a long day in sch, right after you open the gate, the first thing you hear is "DAJIE'S BACK HOME! DAJIE'S HOME!!!" then before you step through the door, someone runs to you and hugs you around your legs, not caring if your sweaty, stinky or smelly..
When you're down, all you have to do is ask for a hug, and they know how you're feeling. Not only do you get a tight bear hug, you get a kiss too! And a smile that really makes you forget everything else(:
I remember the time when I banged my head on the car door..immediately after i sat down, there was this little hand on my head, and a face near my ear, whispering.."Is it painpain? Don't cry okay? I pray for you.." And she just closed her eyes and prayed for me(:
What else matters? He is always there for us(:

letting go of me
holding on to You..

hmm. I've been thinking alot lately.
There's so much I have to say..but I guess I'm not the kind that would.
This year has been really crazy. I'm not afraid to say the Lord has made everything so clear to me..
But it just suddenly all just came out today..

I've realised so many things.. about me, about those around.
I guess I've been like how you say "absorbing the shock when you land, not dropping hard to the floor like a rock.." I'm not like a tennis player (haha yes flo it's true we always use tennis as an analergy), I won't hit back. I just absorb everything you throw..and you unknowingly just keep throwing. But i guess i sorta know why I do all this. He is my strength and my shield, like a shepherd He watches over me day and night..all these pain..have become His. He takes my burden onto His shoulders..And I just receive more. I figured smth else too. people don't like taking responsibility if they don't get recognised..ahh bum. My brain has smartly closed back(: I'm back to normal. hm, I havn't cried like that in ages..whoo. It was good to let it out.

yay this is like our 140th post!! and it's only been abt 5 months or less since we started this blog?

anyway, just to update you guys on what happened to me on the first 3 days of this week.

on monday, i had geog test. it was ok la, much better than the last geog test although the questions asked all seemed to be inter-related. yeah then i also saw someone unexpected when going home on monday. (: (not someone any of you know though...)

oh oh!! did you hear? nadal's going to be the new Number One. he's overtaking federer in 2 weeks. it's confirmed!! so felicia's kind of depressed nowadays. but it's great news for a nadal fan(like me(:

ok then yesterday, i think i must have spent too much time reading tiny chinese passages on monday night cos i was really tired and sleepy in class. after school had chinese oral. the sec 2 higher chinese people got to go before us so i was like one of the last few to be tested? waited on stage for abt 1 and a half hours......

I got mdm er. i dunno if she's generous or not in giving marks. (because i sure need her to be) i guess i shall find out tomorrow what i got. mr chan's gonna show us our results. arghhh!!

i was super duper nervous. i couldn't read the passage properly la. those words that i knew, i stumbled over them. alamak. so at first i only didn't know like about 2 or 3 words, become like i dunno 6 or 7 words (or more) to the teacher!

then the conversation abt more and more elderly people getting robbed in the lifts, i kept saying the same few points over and over and over again. i didn't even express myself properly. all my sentences were like broken? haiyo. but anyway thanks evil-lyn (hehe ok sorry!) for encouraging me in training after that! yeah i sure hope that it's a case of first time jitters. so next year i should be better la. hopefully.

today...the highlight was bio lab class! we were split into two groups then my group got mrs chaiw. and she disected the sheep's heart for us. she was quite funny today. she didn't use any gloves when she touched the heart(unlike ms koh, our trainee). mrs c didn't even take off her ring!! cos she said it 'hinders me'.

haha! yeah then she was like trying to show us the diff blood vessels in the heart so you know what she did? she stuck her whole hand inside the cut-open heart, and used her fingers to find and poke out of the openings!! you know, the aorta and all? yeah her fingers were like peeking out at us. i was standing very close to the heart and could smell it. smells a bit like raw meat. i felt a bit repulsed at first but after that i was fine. (:

mrs c let us touch the heart. i think only amirah, miao xiang, prab and i from our group touched the heart without gloves unlike the other group. amirah even held it in her hand!! bravo for my lab partner!! the heart just felt like raw meat. then the fats were hard. yeah. cos apparently it was put in the freezer beforehand. (well, obviously cos they washed out all the blood already, and there kat was getting me all excited abt seeing blood spurt out of the heart....) i didn't mind touching the heart cos i think this might be my only chance to touch a sheep's heart. i definitely don't want to eat it next time, and i don't want to be a bio teacher too! don't worry, i washed my hands with SOAP. a lot of people didn't want me touching them afterwards!

anyway i gtg now, cos i just realised my brother knows i have a blog and he may want to look for this blog, being the kaypo he is. so whatever, bro , if you see this, you're not welcomed at all! too bad!!

mandy(:

Hello!!



oh my goodness, kathleen and natasha i just wanna smack your butts right now!!! you guys went out with janell after all!!! and never tell me.....never wait for me.......you know i had to do and study geog and yet you guys went ahead with it! arghhh....i feel so sad now.....):

how come the other blazers also didn't go? i thought sanguu wanted to?



remind me to smack your butts tmr ok? anyway today is a HAPPY HAPPY day for me!



you wanna know why? cos it's




♥ OUR FIRST ANNIVERSARY!!




by 'our' you know who i mean right? me and you-know-who! yupzz. hahah.



anyway it's sad that we can't go and celebrate it, cos i have geog test on monday and chinese oral on tuesday. and it's so funny the tests are over, and you're still studying chem??? if i were you, i'll just enjoy this wkend first and then study from next week onwards.

yup anyway gonna go study my coasts!

byebye
mandy(:

Heylo.
Here are some of the wonderful pictures we took today:)

I didn't post all cause they were taking really long to load.

Unglam photo of Janell:D

Hey, the self timer works!

Kathleen has two heads:P

Our journey to nowhere brought us to this enchanting Ring of Water:)

Hangin' upside down..

Self timer's working pretty fine:D

The after effect of a week full of tests.

Deep in thought.

Heart of friendship:D

TEE HEE.

love tashi.

The sky is beautiful..
Wonder how almost all poems about life are based on the sky?
They're right..
Life, is beautiful.

I guess it's the matter of perception.
Are you looking at the grey clouds or the storm?
Or the silver lining and the rainbow?
The stars are always shining!
Just look a little further..They're always there for you.
Only in the dark may you see it clearly

That'll be the same for me..
I'll be there for you(:

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up for you forever

I'll be there through it all

even if saving you sends me to heaven.

yesterday some things happened. and they just reiterated my belief that they've given up on me. but i don't really care anymore. because the one whose opinion matters the most will never give up on me, so why should i give up on myself? "Never give up on yourself because God never gives up on you." I will always remember those words.



ok well today was a :/ day.

chinese test was ok.

chem test was quite ok (although i didn't know how to do the last qn...): )

maths was just.... :/ ... as was el oral. <- the topic wasn't hard, i actually guessed the convo qn correctly! but i just kept blabbering on and on and on, i think she was quite bored in the end. oh and i totally daoed the trainee next to her! haha. i greeted both ok! just that afterwards i just focused on the person in front of me!

yeah so haiyo i was quite down after el oral, but thanks to batgirl (spidermandz mass dance partner today!) as well as john terry's supposed ex missus (jennifer) who cheered me up and encouraged me! yes, jennifer, i shall start living life with CONFIDENCE again. yup i dont care about today's tests and whatever anymore, i shall leave my results in God's hands now. :D

i'm so happy that liverpool have signed robbie keane! more eye candy in liverpool now. :)

yay today's problems are over!! now i can look forward to studying bio! hahahaaha, nice relaxation man....hmm...bio bio bio bio bio........LATER! gonna do other more fun things first! :D

ok bye bye!

<3
MANDY :)

Hello:D

Today was pretty fun. What with all the dancing we did and the cool awesome moves we made. HAHA.

Ho hum. Many tests ahead of us this week.. But i know that we'll all pull through:)

Yeah, i agree, old memories do bring back a whole load of emotions. Ahh, i miss those primary school days..

NIGAHIGA ROCKS!!!

LOVES,

tashi.

teehee