hey fellow undersome'z peeps!

sorry i haven't been able to blog for so long. i think i prob won't blog much from now till after the exams yeah? i'm totally not yet in mugging mood. which is scary cos exams are so close now.

i actually forgot what i wanted to say in this post. anyway a lot of things have been happening recently and i can't say i'm very happy with them. yeah the upcoming exams are one of them but i've got tons of other things on my mind at the moment. i think i might explode soon.

what's the point of finding out abt something only to realise you can't change it anymore?
when you know it's too late, when you know you could have and should have done it earlier?
i really miss you so much, but do you even remember me? do you still care about me?

i think basically what i'm doing right now is just being on auto-pilot. i'm not having fun anymore. i go to school, i go through the motions, i come back home, i go onto the computer, then force myself to do homework or study. it's quite monotonous. i think it's prob because i don't really have anything to look forward to right now. unless you count exams. which is just gonna get my blood pressure up.

i really don't like how things are turning out. i can't find a way out.
i trust in the Lord to lead me, because right now, i don't find any more satisfaction.
i want this to end very very soon. hopefully it'll be out before october ends.
even then, november can't come soon enough.
everytime it's like a torture for me, i try to bear it, they think i've lost the plot.

yeah so anyway, i gtg go now.

see you guys in sch,
mandy(:
maybe next year, i'll be back where i belong, back where i know i won't be looked down upon.
november really can't come soon enough.